Tissues:My experience reading If I Stay by Gayle Forman

I’m a mess.

There is no way that a very short read like Gayle Forman’s “If I Stay” could make me tear up so much so that I went through a whole pack of tissue and even complemented it with two handkerchiefs. What does that say about me?

Either I am (a) too emotional, (b) easily moved to tears or (c) there is something about life being cut short that gets me crying.

I’ll go with all of the above and add that the story is beautifully written. Mia’s world becomes your world as you go from a family taking a drive to a young girl in a coma having to choose whether she fights to stay alive or sinks into the despair of having lost her whole family.


The moment which stood out more for me was when Mia’s Grandfather softly spoke beside her bed saying:

“It’s okay,” he tells me. “If you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than I’ve ever wanted anything in my life.” His voice cracks with emotion. He stops, clears his throat, takes a breath, and continues. “But that’s what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It’s okay if you have to leave us. It’s okay if you want to stop fighting.”

The book’s available on Amazon and whilst looking it up online I found that it had been turned into a movie  and the trailer promises tears…



New week, new Titles

It’s my second year sharing about books on the blog, so thanks WordPress for the happy anniversary wishes!

It’s a Sunday and I am grateful that this past week has been full of events and learning experiences. I haven’t read as many titles as I’d hoped but this coming week, I hope to enjoy some new titles that I’ve just requested off Netgalley:

They are:

  • Dragon Magic by Ava Richardson
  • The Desirable Sister by Taslim Burkowicz
  • The Daughter who Walked Away by Kimia Eslah
  • Burn it Down: Women writing about Anger by Lilly Dancyger

What are you reading this coming week?


Book Review: Swan by Frances Mayes


The Masons are a prominent but now fragmented family who have lived for generations in Swan, an edenic, hidebound small town in Georgia. As Swan opens, a bizarre crime pulls Ginger Mason home from her life as an archeologist in Italy: The body of her mother, Catherine, a suicide nineteen years before, has been mysteriously exhumed. Reunited on new terms with her troubled, isolated brother J.J., who has never ventured far from Swan, the Mason children grapple with the profound effects of their mother’s life and death on their own lives. When a new explanation for Catherine’s death emerges, and other closely guarded family secrets rise to the surface as well, Ginger and J.J. are confronted with startling truths about their family, a particular ordeal in a family and a town that wants to keep the past buried.

The feeling I got from reading this book was like having warm butter melting in my mouth.

I know that sounds a bit flowery but where there is a tragic event that scarred a family, I’m all in, eager to know what happened, when it happened and more so how the family talk about it.

Now, here with Catherine Mason gone- her husband in a nursing home unaware of his surroundings, there are her children: Ginger, an Architect, and J.J. well…he’s the one who loves his time alone in the woods.

It’s a beautiful tale of two children who are grieving their mother, their childhood and most of all…a family that’s looking to deal with a tragedy they never saw coming.

I loved the insights on the characters. They are as complex as they are unraveled but you can’t help but enjoy how crisp the author brings this to light.

Lily had opinions but refused to examine them. p.136

The events in the story take place in 7 days or so from July 7, 1975 to July 14.

I could relate to J.J at some point when he said:

“You know how a fish sounds when it leaps out of water? If I could write that in a word, I’d know how to be a Writer. Or like the bee, that sizzling sound when it goes back to the swarm. Words are all you have to write with and most things don’t go into words.”

I’d give this heartheartheartheart

However, a dramatic part of me wished for a different ending, but all’s well that ends well.

You can buy a copy of this book on: Amazon



We are not Ourselves by Matthew Thomas: A Book Review

I can never have enough of “chasing the American dream story,” and with this book I had a front row seat into the lives of Irish Immigrants three generations down the line.


Hardcover, 620 pages
Published August 19th 2014 by Simon & Schuster
About the Book

We Are Not Ourselves is a multigenerational portrait of the Irish American Leary family.

Born in 1941, Eileen Tumulty is raised by her Irish immigrant parents in Woodside, Queens, in an apartment where the mood swings between heartbreak and hilarity, depending on whether guests are over and how much alcohol has been consumed. 
When Eileen meets Ed Leary, a scientist whose bearing is nothing like those of the men she grew up with, she thinks she’s found the perfect partner to deliver her to the cosmopolitan world she longs to inhabit. They marry, and Eileen quickly discovers Ed doesn’t aspire to the same, ever bigger, stakes in the American Dream. 

Eileen encourages her husband to want more: a better job, better friends, a better house, but as years pass it becomes clear that his growing reluctance is part of a deeper psychological shift. An inescapable darkness enters their lives, and Eileen and Ed and their son Connell try desperately to hold together a semblance of the reality they have known, and to preserve, against long odds, an idea they have cherished of the future. 

Read more reviews on: Goodreads

My rating: heartheartheartheart

In this book the author tells the story as it is and in his own way, you delve into the lives of the character each with their own dreams and ambitions trying to lead a better life than those who came before them and struggling under the burden of this.

Books I am reading this week

Hi, how’s your week coming along?

My week started out great and there’s nothing as soothing as sleeping while it’s raining outside, so I’m glad that’s happened the past two days. This week I’m taking it slow on my reading because I’ve got a lot piled up at work and so my three titles this week are:

Business & Investing/ Self-Help


Mystery & Thriller

Have a lovely week!