I’m a mess.
There is no way that a very short read like Gayle Forman’s “If I Stay” could make me tear up so much so that I went through a whole pack of tissue and even complemented it with two handkerchiefs. What does that say about me?
Either I am (a) too emotional, (b) easily moved to tears or (c) there is something about life being cut short that gets me crying.
I’ll go with all of the above and add that the story is beautifully written. Mia’s world becomes your world as you go from a family taking a drive to a young girl in a coma having to choose whether she fights to stay alive or sinks into the despair of having lost her whole family.
The moment which stood out more for me was when Mia’s Grandfather softly spoke beside her bed saying:
“It’s okay,” he tells me. “If you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than I’ve ever wanted anything in my life.” His voice cracks with emotion. He stops, clears his throat, takes a breath, and continues. “But that’s what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It’s okay if you have to leave us. It’s okay if you want to stop fighting.”
The book’s available on Amazon and whilst looking it up online I found that it had been turned into a movie and the trailer promises tears…