272 pages/ Flux Books/ Out on: March 5th 2019
Victoria Parker knew her dad’s behavior toward her was a little unusual, but she convinced herself everything was fine—until she found herself locked out of the house at 3:00 a.m., surrounded by flashing police lights.
Now, dumped into a crowded, chaotic foster home, Victoria has to tiptoe around her domineering foster mother, get through senior year at a new school, and somehow salvage her college dreams . . . all while keeping her past hidden.
But some secrets won’t stay buried—especially when unwanted memories make Victoria freeze up at random moments and nightmares disrupt her sleep. Even worse, she can’t stop worrying about her stepsister Sarah, left behind with her father. All she wants is to move forward, but how do you focus on the future when the past won’t leave you alone?
This book tugged at my heartstrings and not in a good way. It brings to light an abuse of power, trust and protection and you have a seventeen year old, Victoria, who is kicked out of her home by her Father and thrust into a foster care system in a blink of an eye.
In reading the book, I felt Victoria’s rage, mistrust, angst and most of all, the need to simply move on, to somehow live her life without focusing on what she struggles to forget, but this trickles down to her step-sister Sarah, and suddenly the feeling of anger, wanting to break someone into pieces comes to light.
The author brought to light abuse, challenges of foster care, the burnout of social workers and more than that, in her redemptive arc, she made reading this bearable.
Aside from the very appealing cover, the title is also representative of the story within.
I received a complimentary eARC of this book courtesy of Netgalley.
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About the Author: Nikki Barthelmess is a journalist and author of young adult books. She entered foster care in Nevada at twelve, and spent the next six years living in six different towns. During this time, Nikki found solace in books, her journal, and teachers who encouraged her as a writer. She graduated with a degree in journalism from the University of Nevada, Reno, and has worked as a maid, cashier, newspaper reporter, and event coordinator, among other odd jobs. Nikki lives in Los Angeles with her husband and her pride-and-joy Corgi pup. Send her a tweet @nikki_grey on Instagram as @nikkibarthelmess and her website: www.nikkibarthelmess.com